Farewell ( Lyric Version )

Farewell

Here,

As the leaves fall,

The weather changes the course of life.

Here,

As the sun sets,

My eyes are still wet,

From the memories in my mind.

Don't know,

Where I go,

Or where I would be tomorrow.

I know,

This is a place,

It will be here,

Long after I am gone...

So...

Say farewell,

To the night,

For I know it will be gone,

And will be reborn, a new light.

It will steal, the shadows,

Kill the doubts in my heart,

As I Rise to fight.

Here,

As the silence sets,

The hope fades out of sight.

Here,

As the fire burns,

The ghosts take turns,

And freeze me in my fright.

Don’t know,

The time to dawn,

Or if I'll be alive tomorrow.

I know,

If I have faith,

I will be here,

I am not forlorn.

So

Say farewell

To the night

For I know it will be gone

And will be reborn, a new light.

It will steal

The shadows,

For I know it will rise,

Rise to fight.

Arsh ...

26/04/2020

Into Darkness...

The light is dark with million stars,

The light it has is truly ours…

We walk, alone,

In a stranger’s disguise,

As we know we’d end up somewhere,

Somewhere in paradise.

We sleep and dream,

And we hope to awaken,

With a hope to rise,

To our expectations.

But still we find ourselves,

Into unforeseen situations,

With nowhere to run,

With no escape.

And though we find ourselves,

Behind closed doors,

We still try to find some memory of hope…

Into the darkness, towards the light,

Towards the million stars so bright,

We try to grab some strength,

To push us to new heights.

Into the darkness, towards a dawn,

When we feel all is lost,

We hope to breathe free again,

Break through this frost.

In to darkness…

We walk alone,

And the cold may get us at last,

We may fall, before

We reach paradise.

The bed of this Earth,

May teach us to live again,

To expect less and believe more,

Would make us better and wise.

And then we’d find ourselves,

Awake and alive,

We would know what we need to do,

What we need to become.

When we find ourselves behind closed doors,

With a sliver of hope,

We’d look for windows for a memory of hope…

Into the darkness, towards the light,

We’d know how to make things right,

We’d know the reason for an existence,

Of a higher purpose.

Into the darkness, towards a dawn,

We won’t feel like a pawn,

Not enslaved by our desires,

Estranged agony,

We hope to breathe again, free,

Into Darkness…

Arsh…

Slowly... We Prey.

Slowly, breath gives way,

But not our identity,

Slowly...

Slowly, the light fades away,

But not our brightness,

Slowly...

All your bullets have done,

Is set our souls free.

And we still live on,

We are inferi.

As the night grows long,

Our spirits grow strong.

We are here to prey on you...

Slowly... 

Arsh...

Tonsillitis

(first episode)

To know a measured swallow,
To feel unmeasured pain,
This exposes the fallacy in
" No pain, No gain ".

When the words come out unclear,
A lump in your throat, you strain
To let it sink deeply
But all your efforts in vain...

When you lie in bed tired,
Low on energy in the end,
You thought, you would bow down
to the King of Westros,
But to Waldeyer's Ring you bend !!!

Arsh ..... 

I am not your enemy...

First steps on the soft earth,

Felt like a surprise,

First words said hello,

With pleasant evergreen smiles…

First Sun, rose so high,

It made our minds bright,

A shower of expectations,

And then came the first night..

When we had our first fight…

First tears that broke the silence,

Clear Brush strokes of violence,

The eclipsing of the dark side,

Revealing primal qualities.

First rush of sadness and disbelif,

Rising waves of anger and madness,

We saw it all, but we failed to see,

I am not your enemy…

First steps, in the aftermath,

Clearing a path, we still stand,

We cleared our home, but we still find

The enemy, hidden in our mind.

First lie and our first weakness,

Brought in the world, its first sickness,

What we have become,

And what else is to come…

Can we tell what is wrong from right,

Or we have just lost our sight.

Can we ever be what we are meant to be,

And fight the true enemy..

That lies within us, deep inside,

We may look in the mirror, we may find

The answer to this disharmony,

And realize..

First tears that broke the silence,

Clear Brush strokes of violence,

The eclipsing of the dark side,

All the things inside of me.

First rush of sadness and disbelif,

Rising waves of agony,

We saw it all, but we failed to see,

Now I see…

I am not your enemy…

Arsh...

Between the Sun and the Past…

A tale of blood and glory,

It may be another sad story,

Since the life has begun,

I am facing the turbulence.

Miles and miles of weight behind me,

And if I fall no one to find me,

I find another end,

Where the sea hits me, and I defend…

So I push harder, and I fly,

My destination beyond this sky,

Another enemy, an obstacle,

I find myself…

(I am) caught between the Sun and the Past,

These raging tides, they make me blind,

My visions still last…

Caught between the Past and the Sun,

This moment is a receding one,

And another has begun…

Finding a way through this

Burning/ from both sides

Memories churning/ my cold mind

Who I became/the light is

Darker and it fades

My past, my present,

And revelations of the future,

And I know what becomes,

Of the many, I hold dear…

I push harder,

To breach the fiery wall,

Burning from both sides,

This enemy I can still fight…

(I am) caught between the Sun and the Past,

These raging tides, they make me blind,

My visions still last…

Caught between the Past and the Sun,

This moment is a receding one,

And another has begun…

Arsh…

Ascending...

Near the very end now,

Near to where the land meets the sky..

What am I to find?

The path has ended here,

Or this direction takes me high,

This hope I cannot deny..

So,

Follow me now,

Don’t look down till we have,

Breached the sky and clouds..

And look around.

Humans and angels,

Rising along with our sound,

Our Spirits Ascending…

We’ve followed them for long

And they lead us into the ground,

We follow them no more.

Broken and beaten,

And taught us that silence was sound,

We left our weaknesses behind that door..

Alas we have climbed out

Of our rabbit hole..

Follow me now,

Don’t look down till we have,

Breached the sky and clouds..

And look around.

Humans and angels,

Rising along with our sound,

Our Spirits Ascending…

Arsh…

A Midnight Sunrise

I have been silent for too long,
And now these thoughts are coming to surface
I have been looking for a positive sunrise,
In the middle of these unkept days.

The night is dark and calm,
A little strange when my mind is at unrest.
I feel I hear muffles voices,
I feel I hear them calling out our name...

Here I find the courage,
To break the blinds over my mind,
And scratch the surface...
I wish I find me on the edge,
Of a midnight sunrise,
And we leap and fly ahead...

Arsh ... (to be continued...)

Through the ashes...

 

Far away, a stranger calling,

A voice lost in my head.

And I can feel myself falling,

On the soil beneath the dead.

Life has taken many turns,

Between the sunrise and sunset.

I may have hidden the broken pieces,

And now they are breaking through my chest..

Help the ones who keep

These emotions at rest...

Help me up on my feet,

I never have lost control.

So many have lost their step and  are falling,

Help me open this god damned door.

Let the hint of failure ring in my ears,

So I lift up my sword and

Bathe me in the fires of hate and more,

To rise from the ashes...

Arsh .... (to be continued...)

Insignificant

Life is in disarray the moment you are born

It’s hard to know which way is right

It’s right to be a little wrong….

And then when you are lost, and the darkness is setting in,

Your hopes are raised by a passing light

You can’t see through thick and thin…

And suddenly there is sunrise, an embrace of comfort,

And a rise of blood on your face, a rise of feeling that you won’t get hurt…

The fears are vanishing,

The circle of darkness I overcome,

All the grief and miseries seem

To have become,

Insignificant….

Life is in a steady state, with the person you have become

These feelings that you have realized,

For someone who has become…

Important, and now I, feel this is love and only

Death can, part us, me thinks, I read the signs correctly

And now at the sunset, at this beautiful moment,

With flowers by my side, and dew drops

 On the windshield and tears in my eyes,

And just like that, I am afraid that we are done!

And with the Sun now down, and the darkness of the night

The moon refuses to reflect the answers

Of the questions I ask, the places I pass

Show me memories, of the past and now I’m done…

That how one day you are somebody close,

The other you are non-existent.

It is rightly said that apart from your bed

No other can give you true allegiance…

The past may be of some importance

It’s the present teaches you to overcome

All the hardships and sombre sadness

And the feeling when you have become

Insignificant….

Arsh…

Alb- SUNRISE.

Not far from now...

(...for the memories deep down in the abyss, sunk, and the relics on the surface)

I will survive, and i smile

at the first rays of dawn

The darkness has passed away

this fear is the last.

I felt the sorrow, the pain,

like a crack into my heart

a damsel i left behind

in the webs of my mind

Someday,

I will be able to smile,

I will be ready for a new stride ahead..

Someday,

I will be in a tomorrow

Far away from sorrow,

Someday

Not too far away...

I built a future

So perfect in my head

And i saw it go down

In the abysmal depths.

So sad, so sad,

The angel of the dawn

Or the devil reminds me

Of so many broken promises...

someday,

i will be able to smile,

i will be ready for a new stride ahead..

someday,

i will be in a tomorrow

Far away from sorrow,

Someday

Not too far away...

Arsh 

The Things Unsaid...

The things unsaid

From every breath that i am taking
Till the many seconds in the day
I wish that i can stop believing
I wish to find a new way.
Into Many pieces of broken glass
I still cannot see myself
Have i died or have i lost the life in me
Tell me...

Like the green fields will go on,
And turn into a new shade
Like reckless leaves will trust the wind
And be driven their way
To wards a silence or towards the busiest place
I dont know what my heart wants
So many things unsaid...

Let me breathe the freshness somewhere,
Like the solace in her hair
Like the darkness was taken over
By the burning Sun and then
Let the birds fly towards their freedom
And the words through my pen
Let me take over my heart and
Tell you, all the things unsaid....

Arsh.

The Wait...

The night, falls on my face,

Tells me how to

Rise and Fall with grace

I have shared ,

My heart with fate

And hence I feel, I

Have made a big mistake

No you don’t know if its enough,

No you don’t know if its fair

I am trying to swim ashore

But I am drowning in despair

And if I hear you turn around

Even without a sound

I hope you find the right way

But you  don’t know how I feel,

When with so much love around

I was betrayed, now its killing me,

This wait….

Shadows, they help me when I’m lost

But at a terrible cost

In the darkness to be lost.

Its fate, what I find hidden deep inside

The revelations of the pride,

They fail to realize,

They have no where to hide….

No you don’t know if its enough,

No you don’t know if its right

I am trying to swim ashore,

I am putting up a fight..

And there is nothing that I can see

Beyond a faraway sea,

I should close my eyes now…

Close them for now…

And if I hear u turn around

Even without a sound

I hope you find the right way

And you don’t know how I feel,

When with so much love around

I was betrayed, now its killing me,

This wait….

Arsh ..(The wait)

...to endure...

(On hearing a voice from the past, like a long lost symphony, playing in my head)

To relinquish anger,

To force it down your throat,

As it burns its way through.

To endure pain,

The unseen, from the inside,

When ur mind fails,

And your heart burns in vain.

To bite down on the sorrow,

The ghost of it, the signs you still bear,

Unhealed, unhealing.

To this pain, i am unyielding.

To burn down and rise from the ashes

In our true skin, unhurt,

Yet wounded....

Fresh, new…

To endure life again,

To endure...

Arsh (On Misery and more…)

The Re return

Hello every one.... its been a long time since my last visit here. Due to many reasoons i havnt been able to keep up with writing and composing due to work commitments.
  Today i was sitting outside on the Hospital katta and it was drizzling, the weather so beautiful has urged me to type in the feelings unsaid.... 

Evening shades of gray

Walking down the alley,

With shadows creeping towards you,

You dont know why you are here,

you dont know, where u,ve ended up is..

Shallow breaths, and every step

Is heavier than before,

You have found out the hard way,

You dont know what you've become.....

And out in the open, I can see

No sky or a silver lining,

I can feel the cold

And the anguish of the sun.

I feel, the wheels are in motion,

As my fate lets me know,

In the evening shades of gray,

I have become…… so unnatural.

Arshaj Gaikwad.

Oh Spirit. Awaken...

Rise from the dead,

The Sun has spoken,

His final words to me,

Make sense.

Something that was lost,

Something, deep inside, hidden,

Something, I thought was dead,

Something has to arouse, awaken.

The eyes wide open,

Reflecting a dark horizon,

Searching for a spark,

Searching now, forever

To end this instability,

And bring peace.

Oh spirit,

Rise now, and meet me halfway,

My quest has just begun.

Rise, from the dead,

Awaken!

Arsh... (c)

The way we depart...

A sword of lightening,

Disturbing the clouds of thunder,

Their ranks are breaking…

A sound of metal,

Cracking of the armor,

The will lies shattered, broken …

And still we try,

We still have enough power,

To face this scuffle…

We still care for,

We still stand for the hour,

Before the fallen…

All eyes rest upon us now,

They shed the tears.

So many have sacrificed their fears,

And their remains lie here.

Tears fall like fiery acid rain,

Should we fall, and life parts,

They will remember us, not by the failures in our past,

But The way we depart…

Arsh...(c)

(to be continued...)

You Poked Me!!!

(dedicated to all the fB pokersJJJ enjoy)

I was sleeping.

Dreaming, unavailable,

A world of my own,

A world without worries…

So many people there,

I was there, invisible,

 I was at peace,

Yes, I was happy…

Soaring over the crowd,

No one knew by whereabouts…

And then you poked me,

Poked me till it all disappeared,

Struggling,

I awoke with a startle.

And u laughed at me,

Like it was a funny thing that happened,

I was just getting away,

When you poked me….

Everything changes,

When you get poked.

Its wasn’t just once or twice,

Many many times, you get choked…

A dozen tiny fingers,

Making constant dents on your mind..

So many holes there

I wish I was a porcupine…

And then u poked me,

And said,’its nothing personal’

Struggling,

I awoke with a startle.

And u laughed at me,

Like it was a funny thing that happened,

I was just getting away,

When you poked me….

Arsh (c)

Depth of Darkness…

 The unknown, filling up the void,

Pain, as two twisters collide,

Sorrow, feeding off the soul,

Energy, the Life force,

Fading, dying…

Darkness prevails now.

Darkness overpowering,

Self sustaining …

Arsh (c)