Insignificant

Life is in disarray the moment you are born

It’s hard to know which way is right

It’s right to be a little wrong….

And then when you are lost, and the darkness is setting in,

Your hopes are raised by a passing light

You can’t see through thick and thin…

And suddenly there is sunrise, an embrace of comfort,

And a rise of blood on your face, a rise of feeling that you won’t get hurt…

The fears are vanishing,

The circle of darkness I overcome,

All the grief and miseries seem

To have become,

Insignificant….

Life is in a steady state, with the person you have become

These feelings that you have realized,

For someone who has become…

Important, and now I, feel this is love and only

Death can, part us, me thinks, I read the signs correctly

And now at the sunset, at this beautiful moment,

With flowers by my side, and dew drops

 On the windshield and tears in my eyes,

And just like that, I am afraid that we are done!

And with the Sun now down, and the darkness of the night

The moon refuses to reflect the answers

Of the questions I ask, the places I pass

Show me memories, of the past and now I’m done…

That how one day you are somebody close,

The other you are non-existent.

It is rightly said that apart from your bed

No other can give you true allegiance…

The past may be of some importance

It’s the present teaches you to overcome

All the hardships and sombre sadness

And the feeling when you have become

Insignificant….

Arsh…

Alb- SUNRISE.

Not far from now...

(...for the memories deep down in the abyss, sunk, and the relics on the surface)

I will survive, and i smile

at the first rays of dawn

The darkness has passed away

this fear is the last.

I felt the sorrow, the pain,

like a crack into my heart

a damsel i left behind

in the webs of my mind

Someday,

I will be able to smile,

I will be ready for a new stride ahead..

Someday,

I will be in a tomorrow

Far away from sorrow,

Someday

Not too far away...

I built a future

So perfect in my head

And i saw it go down

In the abysmal depths.

So sad, so sad,

The angel of the dawn

Or the devil reminds me

Of so many broken promises...

someday,

i will be able to smile,

i will be ready for a new stride ahead..

someday,

i will be in a tomorrow

Far away from sorrow,

Someday

Not too far away...

Arsh 

The Things Unsaid...

The things unsaid

From every breath that i am taking
Till the many seconds in the day
I wish that i can stop believing
I wish to find a new way.
Into Many pieces of broken glass
I still cannot see myself
Have i died or have i lost the life in me
Tell me...

Like the green fields will go on,
And turn into a new shade
Like reckless leaves will trust the wind
And be driven their way
To wards a silence or towards the busiest place
I dont know what my heart wants
So many things unsaid...

Let me breathe the freshness somewhere,
Like the solace in her hair
Like the darkness was taken over
By the burning Sun and then
Let the birds fly towards their freedom
And the words through my pen
Let me take over my heart and
Tell you, all the things unsaid....

Arsh.

The Wait...

The night, falls on my face,

Tells me how to

Rise and Fall with grace

I have shared ,

My heart with fate

And hence I feel, I

Have made a big mistake

No you don’t know if its enough,

No you don’t know if its fair

I am trying to swim ashore

But I am drowning in despair

And if I hear you turn around

Even without a sound

I hope you find the right way

But you  don’t know how I feel,

When with so much love around

I was betrayed, now its killing me,

This wait….

Shadows, they help me when I’m lost

But at a terrible cost

In the darkness to be lost.

Its fate, what I find hidden deep inside

The revelations of the pride,

They fail to realize,

They have no where to hide….

No you don’t know if its enough,

No you don’t know if its right

I am trying to swim ashore,

I am putting up a fight..

And there is nothing that I can see

Beyond a faraway sea,

I should close my eyes now…

Close them for now…

And if I hear u turn around

Even without a sound

I hope you find the right way

And you don’t know how I feel,

When with so much love around

I was betrayed, now its killing me,

This wait….

Arsh ..(The wait)

...to endure...

(On hearing a voice from the past, like a long lost symphony, playing in my head)

To relinquish anger,

To force it down your throat,

As it burns its way through.

To endure pain,

The unseen, from the inside,

When ur mind fails,

And your heart burns in vain.

To bite down on the sorrow,

The ghost of it, the signs you still bear,

Unhealed, unhealing.

To this pain, i am unyielding.

To burn down and rise from the ashes

In our true skin, unhurt,

Yet wounded....

Fresh, new…

To endure life again,

To endure...

Arsh (On Misery and more…)

The Re return

Hello every one.... its been a long time since my last visit here. Due to many reasoons i havnt been able to keep up with writing and composing due to work commitments.
  Today i was sitting outside on the Hospital katta and it was drizzling, the weather so beautiful has urged me to type in the feelings unsaid.... 

Evening shades of gray

Walking down the alley,

With shadows creeping towards you,

You dont know why you are here,

you dont know, where u,ve ended up is..

Shallow breaths, and every step

Is heavier than before,

You have found out the hard way,

You dont know what you've become.....

And out in the open, I can see

No sky or a silver lining,

I can feel the cold

And the anguish of the sun.

I feel, the wheels are in motion,

As my fate lets me know,

In the evening shades of gray,

I have become…… so unnatural.

Arshaj Gaikwad.